Marauder's mind

The Prohecy of Neo

2006-03-16T00:19:00.000-08:00

"I know you're out there. I can feel you now. I know that you're afraid. You're afraid of us. You're afraid of change. I don't know the future. I didn't come here to tell you how this is going to end. I came here to tell you how it's going to begin. I'm going to hang up this phone, and I'm going to show these people what you don't want them to see. I'm going to show them a world without you. I'm going to show them a world without rules or controls, without borders or boundaries. A world where anything is possible. Where we go from there is a choice I leave to you."

I love speaking about choices because it is so much fun and there is so much you could keep muttering without making sense. Although choices are supposedly bloody important I like to agree with three people who I find extremely intelligent,witty and hilarious and almost opposed to the idea of choices.

Firstly Murphy of the Murphy's Law fame. He says what you and I know best "Shit Happens".But he does it hilariously well. For the record no guy named murphy created all the laws. There was this chap like one of us who told shit happens and his name was Murphy .For more on that click here. If anything can go wrong ,it will. The beauty is in its all encompassing nature. So all laws following this one are either XYZ's commentraies on this or they are its corollaries. One of my favorites is "Smile,...Tomorrow will be worse" Sarcasm works best as a antidote in many cases of depression. When you can see humor is sarcasm you can really move forward. Its fun. If any of you watch Seinfeld there is one episode Jerry says "If you've got a t-shirt with blood stains all over it maybe laundry isn't your biggest problem right now."

I am bored and bugged as of now...more later...

Deep in confusion

Pensive

23 Orbits around the Sun

2006-03-08T10:16:00.000-08:00

I will be completing 23 orbits around the Sun today at 5:55 am IST. Its been a great journey. Enjoyed every bit of it, be it the sun showing the harsh reality or be it the moon soothing me through tough times single second matters. Every life that I crossed matters.

We go through life with an illusion assuming that things will get easier.When we are kids we think its fun to be grown up.When we are teens we think its cool to be earning.When we are earning we think its cool to earn more.But deep down inside we know its being kids and being innocent we miss the most.(By we I refer to only the population that agrees with me)

There is only one single goal in the universe:Happiness.With every orbit around the sun, the challenges increase and the clarity of our goal reduces. We still pursue happiness but its no longer of the formless kinds we knew of when we were kids. As kids we knew happiness as an emotion which we could express i.e. to say that Happiness was within. As we grow we slowly disassociate happiness from within us to objects and people around us. Good or Bad ,Correct or Wrong I cant judge. Happiness might lie in getting a double digit hike in salary or phone call from the one you love. Note that these are just external stimuli which pump the happiness within.

Being human we associate. We learn by association. We are taught A for Apple, and so on. One of the funny things I am never able to understand is people saying "don't use your heart , Think through your brain(or kidneys or whatever)". The heart is thus guilty by association. Love is one of the most misunderstood things on the planet. (I better start a different blog for that. ) I have spoilt the last few years trying to figure out something in an adolescent hormone driven jungle. Back in school when someone used to give me a slam book with the line which says define love. I would write about emotions and crap and most importantly I would talk of two people. Then there were others who wrote "Its a four letter word". I would laugh at them. Clarity in this aspect has certainly improved over the years and my notion now is closer to what they used to write.Simplicity, is love. To love or not is not a choice we are born with. We love . That's the end of it.(Sometimes i wish it was more complicated.) But I have learnt to love without asking to many questions.

Just got off the phone with a friend of mine. I was telling him my 23 orbits concept and he was like "Big Deal !! You got it for free ". Lot of meaning and fun behind that. If you were to use Einstein space time continuum theory you could get back to any event cause it has a unique position at a unique time.There are so many i would love to visit in my life. So many happy moments to re-live,so many quarrels which I could have won,so many things I could have done better. But I am happy that space time continuum is still a theory. I am happy with choices I have made and will continue to make.As someone once said "You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life."

I get to make this journey only once and I am going to have fun. I am going to drag everyone along with me into my happiness and jettison people who want to get lost in the mundane world with their problems. I will try awaken the kid in me and learn what it meant to be happy. I will live this one day at a time. At any point of time if any of you ever find me not doing this please refer me to this blog. One life , lots of love and a lot of happiness to spread.What we call the secret of happiness is no more a secret than our willingness to choose life.

Cheers to life and my 24 the Orbit

Pensive

A Life to Enjoy

2006-03-06T22:57:00.000-08:00

Partying is not as easy at it sounds takes effort and pain to enjoy one thoroughly. 5 and half hours at restaurant requires stamina. May not be exactly the kind you need at work but it most definitely does.

Late into the night when I was curling into my bed ,trying to find that last ounce of sleep I can catch on to a thought grew in my mind. To party is to celebrate life. To party is to recognize that these events in our lives are special. So its about stopping life for a second and enjoying it that very moment.

At which point during our evolution did we start partying. I cant imagine two Neanderthals celebrating their happiness over a bottle of beer and a couple of breezers. I am pretty sure they would have been elated but would they celebrate ? Celebration is an evolutionary trait. We have evolved the way we celebrate throughout the ages. From pounding our chests to clinking a champagne flute its certainly evolution in its Darwinian best.

Celebration of life thus is subtle form of escaping from the mundane. I know I am going to sound philosophical over the next few lines. Why do we need to celebrate life going away from it. I read this passage everyday the moment I sit in my cubicle.It starts "Today,When I awoke,I suddenly realized that this is the best day of my life, ever !...." Celebration should not be a part of life it should be a way of life .

We are luckier and more blessed than we can fathom, but an ounce of negativity and a tinge of sadism can make our lives gloomy and filled with misery. There is someone who is worried about the workload he has, then there is someone who is worried about the workload he wished he had, there are people who wished they had a different work load and then there are people who are never satisfied with their best effort. A lacunae is omnipresent. If the above mentioned four categories of people would look beyond themselves (and their so called miseries ) and realize others existence then we would be almost hitting the solution. I am not talking about just this scenario or issue. Just for kicks let me think of a algorithm

Step 1. Think of a problem you have .
Step 2 . Think about your problem in all aspects.
Step 3. Think about three other people who have similar problems
Step 4. Think about people who wished they were in a stage where they could have the problem you have.
Step 5.Think beyond the problem. Think of how small it is in your life.

If you still don't feel an ounce better keep repeating till you do.

We get one life to enjoy , enjoy it by the moment.

As I mentioned earlier about this prose on my wall it concludes saying

"...As the day ends and I lay head down the pillow,I will thank everyone for the best day of my life . And I will sleep the sleep of a contented child,excited with expectation because tomorrow is going to be the best day of my life ,ever !"

ciao

Pensive the light hearted

To Think or Blink

2006-03-03T00:32:00.000-08:00

I dont have any good reason for not posting 2 days. And i wont try to get out of this one. But yes i do enjoy blogging.
I have had two comments on this blog to start off and i am satisfied with this.
If i had to give a nice sounding reason why i didnt post for a couple of days i could say i was thinking . (I could say .But I am not) .I find it very amusing that a certain section of people in our society are labeled Thinkers. Everyone does think about something or the other deeply and passionately, but labling or judiging someone based on what he thinks and its value w.r.t society is crap.Doesnt make sense.
"Rodin's thinker " attracts so much attention all over cause it was a symbol of thought put into action. Rodin was a big worshiper of Dante (The guy who wrote divine comedy) and is supposed to have modelled the thinker after him. Rodin's words capture the essence of the sculpture the best .He says "......The Thinker has a story. In the days long gone by I conceived the idea of the Gates of Hell. Before the door, seated on the rock, ....... Guided by my first inspiration I conceived another thinker, a naked man, seated on a rock, his fist against his teeth, he dreams. The fertile thought slowly elaborates itself within his brain. He is no longer a dreamer, he is a creator."

I say exactly my point. A person who puts thoughts in action. So that makes each and every one of us thinkers in our own right and might . Why the hell is this post turning out to be so philosophical ? I say .. B#$%#$iT ..You got to dream big first ... Its only the you can create something. There is something beautiful and blissfull about dreaming. Dreamers are a rare breed, Thinkers are a species found in abundance .Dreamers can build up worlds around themselves without any effort but thinkers put that into action with a lot struggle ...(No wonder they are more popular,laziness as a virtue is treated as a base nature")

How many out there can actually close thier eyes and visualise anything they want to ...?Its not as easy it seems or sounds..I read this book once on "Astral Travels" of travelling in your dreams and beyond your body experiences.It makes perfect sense . They speak about trails of light you leave behind when you move etc etc and the cord that connects your sleeping body and the dream being. I rubbished the accuracy of the same but years later i read a book by Richard Bach "The Bridge Across Forever" in which he talks about similar experieces which made me question my own conclusion on astral travels. This is an untouched area in the human race development. Thinkers talk about "thinking out of box" which is something dreamers do as a way of life .

Look at the funny co incidence in the similarity of the image in this post and my previous post with spidey in black .

Ciao...

Pensive the Dreamer

The Element of SURPRISE !!!

2006-02-28T00:36:00.000-08:00

A friend of mine decided to throw a surprise visit on me. I just got off the phone with her after giving my address and directions. She stil claims its a surprise. Whats it thats so special abt surprise.. Anything that comes to you when least expected is surprising and good..

A few years ago i was attending a session of "Art of living"..The instructor told me point blank."Dont expect ..let your expectations fly away..The misery of life is that we expect".
At that point i told myself let me try but six years into that exercise i am still not quite there..How can you stop expecting ? You get up in the morning expecting to have a good day at work..You expect to eat a certain kind of breakfast..You expect the traffic to be low ..You expect that your girlfriend willcall you atleast today ...The point being you expect.But would there be no life without expectations.

Imagine getting up into a world without expectations i.e. to say a world filled with surprises...
Its 5 am in the morning and your door bell rings ,you know its the milk man,flower girl or the car cleaner.But No you decide not to expect anything and open the door. It still is one of the above persons. Nuthing helpful.. Consider a different scenario ..You are riding/driving ( i always use them interchangeably) without any expectations about the traffic and today it happens to be non existent..and you are surprised and elated..Now in this case how exactly did your expectation help ? I am confused.. All spiritual exercises should come with a 60 page contract note refining the finer points of the guidance given by them..

Spiderman changing his trademark costume to black..Now how stupidly surprislng is that ?Spiderman is supposed to wear a red and blue costume...This is akin to making asterix look like obliex.

But true to its meaning..surprise has an element of charm about it..That unexpected phone call.. that unexpected geture..that unexpected reaction..They get etched in the passages of memory...

Everything looks good at hindshight...No matter how you look at it..

Thats it for todays crap...

The Paneer Age

2006-02-26T21:40:00.000-08:00

We have had the stone age, iron age, bronze age and every possible xyz age. But I dont think in any other era or age poeple have been so weight conscious.(hence the title Paneer Age) . From super quick diets, expensive gyms, marathons happening all over the place people are sweating it out to lose the gained calories.Diets are no longer fashionable. Its about eating hard and trying to exercise.

When in college , the menu was ridiculously simple. Roti and Paneer Butter masala. It was the yummiest thing you could have around the place and the taste kept you away from tasting the other things on the menu.

Now Paneer is the last thing on my so called "diet consciuos" mind. I stare at the mirror every day to see all the paneer pasted on either side of my tummy. After getting thoroughly frustrated at the outburst of fat pockets at the wrong areas i decided to burn some calories by crunches (Myth 1 : Spot Reduction works )
(I say "No !!, It doesnt ") .Crunches are like feel good exercises. You keep doing them and over time you realise you can do ith without hurting any fat or causing any undue strain. I guess thats the human intelligence (err more like Darwins Theory of eveolution) ..

Whatever..A few more days of burning calories and i guess i can bite into the paneer once again. Then there are this radical few who believe that you get one life to live . Corrollary being "dont waste a once in a life time opportunity not to eat paneer"

Here is to the paneer age

Cheers...

Pensive

The writing on the White Board

2006-02-23T23:05:00.000-08:00

I got up seeing a half page snap shot of Mr. Bush on two separate pages of a daily. Daily is known for ads and nonsense but this was a total lack of news.
Budget time here in India and the kind of security given the budget documents can only be rivalled by the security arranged for the first citizen of the supposedly "best functioning democracy". 8 Trucks of security equipment..!!!! Nuts...

Why isnt life simple ?? This is like the most impossible thing to consider answering... Sages ,Saints, Godmen, Drunkards, Dopeys all claim to know the secret of simplifying things.. I considered myself sane.. but cant fool myslef any longer. Sanity and simplicity are in no way related..they are miles apart..

And Miles to go before i sleep...

Phewww

The flow of the Yin - Yang

2006-02-23T01:13:00.000-08:00

The flow of the Yin and the Yang are what are supposedly responsible for the crazy nutty things that happen in your lives..I am sure this is not an ideal apt start of any blog..But hell i dont care..My mind is going to use this space in cyber space to clear its contents..I will be farting my way through topics ranging from colors of the rainbow through a red colored prism to dilbert to calvin to any possible plausible topic on the face of the Planet...

Face of the Planet!!! Now that doesnt make sense.. Why is it the face of a planet ... A planet is a spherical object .. Why face ?? umm maybe its a short for surface ..whatever... I need to solve a few mysteries of this race before i make my hop into netherworlds...